why did i pick such a gay theatrical band that has to put a shitload of meaning into everything they do but refuse to talk about anything honestly and then break up in the middle of making an album to be my favorite band life is unfair
Wow, haven’t noticed the crow ;) ….yeah, possibly!
As for the FOR JAMIA ….Oh, yeah..at first, it surprised me i gotta say, but then when i thought about, it’s pretty logical he would, it’s nice of him that he wants to thank her and appreciate her and do it in this huge way…. but on the other hand, i can’t shake off the feeling he’s also doing it to piss G off, i still have in mind Gerard devoting his comic book to Lynz… so i can still imagine Frank put there songs about G too..like, we know 2 songs are for Jamia and abotu Jamia…but how about the rest of them? But then again, if he only did it just for Jamia, it’s more than understandable…
After all, Gerard’s mostly just hurt him bad in the past…yeah, Frank’s always loved him even despite that, but Jamia, Jamia’s REALLY the person F should be grateful to cuz she’s always stood by him, never hurt/betrayed him, always took care of him, supported him, held him when it was all hard to take…she was still by him even during the period of time that Frank was screaming into the mic about his hatred and love forever for Gerard in leathermouth….. i mean…shit, she fucking is amazing and honestly she’s the best person Frank could ever hope for….
….and just like he’s saying, she “deserves more than i could possibly give her." …..wonder why, right?
When you look at his poems…you can tell 90% of those are about and addressed to Gerard.
I think it’s actually pretty damn nice he finally did something for Jamia too…….. she deserves it 1000x more than Gerard, really.
wow baby…i haven’t really analyzed it yet….but…
I’ll tell you what impression i’ve got from that one……. So it seems DARK…like the ending;’s dark..it’s a cemetery, indicating the end of it all…it’s broken, by that G probably meant that it couldn’t go on anymore, it’s done.. There’s fog, that’s fucking interesting…well, G probably (or the guys, dunno who worked on that) meant to make it seem mysterious… yet to me it means “yeah, SHADY, it’s fucking shady…you know shit about why it really had to end or what all was going on within the band while it still existed”, it means FRERARD to me too, the most shady fucking thing apart from the weirdest break up of the band in the history of ever. And then guys, THEN, there’s super important thing, and that is LITTER…litter surrounding it… that means the same to me. Officially it should’ve probably meant that it’s a long forgotten grave, like, nobody cares or soon nobody will care, it’s over… But i personally see it as litter surrounding what was going on among the members, with the band, with Frank and Gerard for instance too literally… like literally there’s some shit, it was not all rainbows and unicorns….. after all, we know from Frank and his poem (or we can suppose) that Frank hated the end of it…. Frank was the biggest fan of the band. Well…. There’s so much we won’t ever know…most likely…
But yeah…i don’t know..this is just my first impression, i still don’t know what the inscription in red ink is saying (there’s something like “We a— —- —— hell”)
…. Anyway, what do YOU guys think?I mean..we can discuss it…
you mean this?
Well yeah…can’t read what’s written there below in the red ink…dunno
I haven’t really thought of it yet…
The only thing i know, it’s making me feel bad…cuz this seems to me like Gerard’s really pushing it, like really not wanting to have anything to do with MCR anymore, not even leaving the space for whatever might come in the future, like he’s so fucking sure of not wanting it anymore….
I don’t know..i think nobody should be that sure, you never know hwat might happen…… Gerard’s just trying too hard, he’s always been that way….. ending things in the worst possible manner, not looking back…he’s done that with Eliza, with Bert…. with Frank too, and that time it hit him back…he’s done that with MCR….just waiting for the moment when it hits him back, cuz this one’s at least as huge and as important as his rship with F….so
oh don’t be! Gerard devoted his umbrella academy to Lynz!!
So i think they’re square ;)
They both just took a chance to thank their wives making it kinda big. And especially Frank’s got a lot to thank for.
Anyway, they’re behaving like fucking kids. Gerard’s like “lynz my wife, nothing else exists, she making me heterosexual yayay, im no gay, and im gonna devote my work to her, frank who?” and Frank be like “you devote your piece of work to Lynz? i’m devoting mine to Jamia!! cuz SHE ‘s never left me, fucker!! And i’m gonna make it huge!!! my whole album’s gonna be named after her, how about that??!!! you likin it??”
And that’s exactly the way they work and have worked ever since project rev. Remember all the twitter shit, them tweeting about each other but metaphorically, G going all “Love.” and then Frank’s seen with a “NO LOVE” t shirt on.. and all that stuff, remember?? all the sly digging….
This is their way….it’s extremely fucking stupid and i wouldn’t expect Frank to go this far as i used to see him as the more reasonable one, but nope, both are the same, they’re like children, also, they’re men, and every woman knows that shitstorm’s coming when a man’s ego’s hurt…. so shit, they did that to eahc other and now they’re fighting…. probably thinking how smooth they are…well…….
yeah, i’d love to find some beta..maybe if you guys know of someone who could help…?
I’m so glad you like it, bb, it’s like…y’know, i didn’t want to write a typical story with the beginning-introduction, everything gets complicated, suspense, resolution, aaaaand the end.
…i like to refer to the fic as to a story of a life…cuz srsly, it’s going slow, like in one’s life would….usually it’s not like, hi, whoa i want you,actually, i love you, omg. Nope. Relationships take much longer to be built…and that’s also what i was trying to depict in the story… also with the realization, it’s never all that easy, usually there’s the denial, then pondering, yes,no, maybe so, hah…real life… i’m trying to depict a relationship being built up in real life situations, with real life reactions…it’s also about friendship, about family relationships…dunno… Also, it doesn’t end with the two falling in love, cuz no story ends that way,no reali life story. Life’s a lot more complicated than that. I also use a lot of stuff from my own life or from what i’ve witnessed…So yeah, realistic, that’s what i’ve been aiming for ;)
Thank you so much for the feedback!!!!! <3
Also thank you for supporting me and this blog ;) MUCH LOVE TO YOU <3 xx
but…but what did he tweet to her? :-O …like…what does this mean?
oh honey, don’t worry about that :) it happens a lot, i’ve already posted a manip in the past, not knowing about that, we’ve discussed a lot of fake tweets here too… it’s cool when we bring it up, discuss it and then if it’s fake, confirm it. Cuz that way even later when the tweet will be old news, and there’ll be ppl not sure about whether it’s fake or not, they can still read it here or elsewhere…
i love it when new stuff’s being brought up, and i’m really glad it was me you chose to share the info with, it’s sweet :) <3
Don’t apologize,hon ;) …we saw it, discussed it, said it was too good to be true :D end of story ;) BESIDES, i think we don’t need the actual tweet to know Frank does feel that way, right? ;)
actually yeah, um…i’ve changed my url since my blog turned into a cockles rather than destiel blog…so it’s cocklesistoblame now
oops, i’m so sorry, what a mess :D
okay..thank you for clearing that up. Yeah, my best friend read A splitting of the mind and she loved it very very much, she read some parts to me…i couldn’t bring myself to read it cuz my poor heart, it’s so damn sad, heart-wrenching, i couldn’t take it….life’s already heart-breaking enough…
But she would recommend it, i think.
:) it always makes me smile when someone asks for more… hehehee
Hope you’ll enjoy, things are gonna get a little more heated and a little more complicated… let me know what you thought about it! it helps me, feedback’s always appreciated!
Older parts of SCRAPPER & CHARMER:
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(WARNING: again, i repeat, it’s not a finished version. i’ll need a beta to correct the grammar/spelling shit. until then, this is all i can give)